When You Feel Like You're Not Enough
Maybe you're like me.
Maybe some days you wake up in the morning feeling like you didn't get a wink of sleep. Maybe you didn't.
Maybe some days you work real hard, your absolute hardest, and something or someone comes along and knocks all your efforts flat.
And maybe some days you just don't even try to accomplish anything because you already know it won't work out like you want it to.
Maybe you have a conversation with someone and the right words won't come. Or too many words, the wrong ones, come all at once and you can't seem to stop them.
Maybe someone is trying to change you. Make you into their ideal of a person. Cultivating feelings of guilt in your heart for just being yourself.
Maybe you're like me and you're just plain and simple tired of all the busyness and the noise and the full calendar and the cluttered mind. It feels like the world is shouting at you.
DO MORE. SAY MORE. BE MORE.
I want to be strong. I want to do everything. I want to say all the right words. I want to be all that people need me to be. Wife. Daughter. Sister. Friend.
But you know what? I realized something. And you need to hear it too.
It took my body giving out for a time, along with my emotions on many days, but I learned this:
I DON'T HAVE TO STRIVE TO BE ENOUGH.
There. I said it.
And guess what?
YOU DON'T HAVE TO STRIVE TO BE ENOUGH EITHER.
Why? Because we already are.
Now don't misunderstand me here. I'm not saying either of us is perfect. If we're being honest, we already know that.
What I'm saying is that God knows our imperfections. Our quirks. Our failings. Our deepest, darkest secrets. And yet, he sacrificed his own Son so that he might call you his own for all eternity.
He gave his life to pour out the richness of his love and grace on you.
Not because we deserve it. We don't, and we never will.
But because we are worth it to him.
We are enough for him, right where we are.
The perfect, broken vessels to pour his love into so that it can seep through the cracks onto the people around us.
Just so you know, perfection is not worth the fight that it takes to get there. (spoiler alert: you'll never actually get there.)
You won't always have it all together. You won't always get everything done in a day. You won't always say the right thing. You won't always be the person other people want you to be.
But that is always okay.
Don't try to sand down all your rough edges and putty up all your cracks. They are beautiful. YOU are beautiful.
Be real. Be raw.
Don't strive to be enough for the world, or other people, or yourself.
Just take a breath and rest deep and easy in the promise that you are enough for God.
Enough for him die the ultimate sacrifice. Enough for him to love beyond measure.
"But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ - by grace you have been saved - and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus." -Ephesians 2:4-7